twenty nine

28 Sep

Instead of holding on to the past
and deeming myself as old,
I am merely going to REFLECT on the past and
only take lessons LEARNED with me to the future.

Any anger, shame and regrets.
All the self criticisms about not being good enough.
I will no longer carry this bullshit with me 🙂
Why? because it does not ameliorate my life in any way.

I believe every single relationship we have or ever had has a purpose.
From the one with the homeless dude to the one with our significant other.
Relationships are the quintessential way of life showing us who we really are.
Not to discourage and put us down, but to challenge our values and beliefs.
Why? in order to find our TRUE selves,
not the one we THINK we should be by society’s standards.
If we allow ourselves the FREEDOM to just live in the moment,
to really listen to our HEARTs and SOULs,
our true essence will be revealed.
Then all the elements of life will CONSPIRE and
SYNCHRONIZE for us to live our truth.

I find it hard to believe that this level of awareness can be
achieved at a very young age, although I have seen instances of
a young kid who has an old soul:)

Some find it unnecessary to reflect internally.
As humans they certainly feel lonely or sad,
but they search outwardly to fill this void.
They find temporary relief externally
through people, food, money, alcohol, drugs and sex.
Anything that they believe
has the POWER to make them happy.
We all have been guilty of this at some point in our lives.
We learn these things will certainly alleviate the unbearable emotions at times
but alas, they always return. each time even more agonizing.

In order to be truly happy,
we must look within and learn to love ourselves first.

All this to express that I APPRECIATE being not old but old enough.
GRATEFUL that I now know who I am and what I want.
RELIEVED that my early twenties (finding myself days) are behind me
and EXCITED to start living life as the REAL me.
Most of all, I now know that I am responsible
for my own happiness.
This means I am held accountable for all
my actions. Excuses such as “everyone does it”
“I was born this way” “it’s a korean thing” are no longer valid.
I must choose conscientiously
as everything I buy, eat, do or say
is a reflection of who I am.
I must let the universe handle karma and justice.
The complexities of righteousness are
beyond my intellectual capacity 🙂
Sometimes you just have to let go…

There is no such thing as PERFECT in this life.
We disappoint ourselves and others constantly.
The vital lesson here is that we must
never EVER give up on OURSELVES and our DREAMS.
Always be compassionate, never stop learning.
Don’t judge.
Be generous with love.
We all have an unlimited supply of Vitamin L.
As a matter of fact the more we give,
the more we get !!!!!
LIVE life~
The way you want it~
Soha ~^^~


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